Monday, June 29, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
My Fair Share of Being a Drama Queen
This happened quite a while ago when Kylie was only 5 days old. From the day of my delivery up until Kylie was 5 days old, I felt this pain in the lower right part of my abdomen. At first, I did not mind it as I thought it was just a normal pain due to my delivery. But as days passed by, the pain became worse. My mom-in-law was so concerned and suggested that I need to see a doctor. She said it could be "appendicitis".
So together with Jay-ar, I went to the hospital where I had given birth. It was a sunny afternoon of May 1. Since it was holiday, only the general/family doctor was around. I was so ignorant about how serious illness the appendicitis is that I even suggested to the doctor that I might be suffering from it. The doctor pressed the lower right part of my abdomen and asked me "does this hurt?" I said "yes" and I think I exaggerated my facial expression a bit that he assumed that I was in so much pain. Then he came up with his diagnosis and he told me "yes, this could be appendicitis". After that, he told me that I need to be confined for 2-3 days because I need to be operated on the same day. I was so shocked hearing that. I did not know that it was that serious! The doctor explained to me that if it is indeed an appendicitis I was suffering from, he could not afford not to let me go through an operation. That was the only time I realized how serious it is. I told the doctor that I cannot be confined because there is a baby waiting for me at home and that I am breastfeeding her. But the doctor insisted that I must be operated. Then I started crying in front of him and kept on repeating that I cannot do it because my baby needs me and then I cried and I cried and the doctor was consoling me, which lasted for few minutes. Jay-ar was so tough that he told the doctor that we will do what needs to be done.
When we went out of the doctor's room, I was still crying and the other patients waiting for their turn were staring at me thinking what could my illness be. Even until the time when Jay-ar was taking care of my confinement, I was sitting at the waiting area and still crying. I think the doctor was also thinking I was overreacting because he kept on telling me that it will just be a small operation and that many people had gone thru the same procedure. Well, I thought so too. Blame it to PPD. But I had valid reasons to be upset. For one, I had just given birth 5 days ago for crying out loud! My body was then still recovering. Another thing, I was crying because I was thinking of my 5-day old baby girl. I will not be with her for 3 days! For me, that is unbearable. Even though my mom-in-law was there to take care of her, I still felt sad knowing that I won't get to see her for 3 days.
Naturally, before any doctor would cut anyone's flesh for operation, they need to be sure that they are doing the right thing right? And I will not let myself be operated solely based on the verdict of a family doctor, who did not do anything but to press my abdomen and see if it hurts. The family doctor referred me to a specialist who will carry out my operation who, fortunately, was just around the hospital doing some operation.
It was around 6 pm that the specialist doctor was able to see us. He said I need to be CT scanned so we can be sure of what my illness really is. But since the department who will do the CT scan was closed that day, I was scheduled to have it the next day and I did not have a choice but to spend the night in the hospital. So to cut the story short, the next day, I had gone through a CT scan and they found nothing wrong with my appendix. And my illness turned out to be a UTI, which most women who had just given birth suffer from. No need for an operation and the doctor just gave me antibiotic that's safe for the baby because I am breastfeeding. After my CT scan, we just waited for the result then we headed home. I was telling Jay-ar on our way home that I had a big mouth. It was me who actually suggested to the family doctor that I could be suffering from appendicitis and I think the doctor just got worried that if I really had appendicitis and he let me go and my appendix burst, the blame will be on him that is why he really insisted for an operation. Good thing I have a medical card so we did not pay for anything and good thing I only needed to stay in the hospital for one night and one day.
And until now, Jay-ar is still teasing me about that incident - on how drama queen I could be! :)
So together with Jay-ar, I went to the hospital where I had given birth. It was a sunny afternoon of May 1. Since it was holiday, only the general/family doctor was around. I was so ignorant about how serious illness the appendicitis is that I even suggested to the doctor that I might be suffering from it. The doctor pressed the lower right part of my abdomen and asked me "does this hurt?" I said "yes" and I think I exaggerated my facial expression a bit that he assumed that I was in so much pain. Then he came up with his diagnosis and he told me "yes, this could be appendicitis". After that, he told me that I need to be confined for 2-3 days because I need to be operated on the same day. I was so shocked hearing that. I did not know that it was that serious! The doctor explained to me that if it is indeed an appendicitis I was suffering from, he could not afford not to let me go through an operation. That was the only time I realized how serious it is. I told the doctor that I cannot be confined because there is a baby waiting for me at home and that I am breastfeeding her. But the doctor insisted that I must be operated. Then I started crying in front of him and kept on repeating that I cannot do it because my baby needs me and then I cried and I cried and the doctor was consoling me, which lasted for few minutes. Jay-ar was so tough that he told the doctor that we will do what needs to be done.
When we went out of the doctor's room, I was still crying and the other patients waiting for their turn were staring at me thinking what could my illness be. Even until the time when Jay-ar was taking care of my confinement, I was sitting at the waiting area and still crying. I think the doctor was also thinking I was overreacting because he kept on telling me that it will just be a small operation and that many people had gone thru the same procedure. Well, I thought so too. Blame it to PPD. But I had valid reasons to be upset. For one, I had just given birth 5 days ago for crying out loud! My body was then still recovering. Another thing, I was crying because I was thinking of my 5-day old baby girl. I will not be with her for 3 days! For me, that is unbearable. Even though my mom-in-law was there to take care of her, I still felt sad knowing that I won't get to see her for 3 days.
Naturally, before any doctor would cut anyone's flesh for operation, they need to be sure that they are doing the right thing right? And I will not let myself be operated solely based on the verdict of a family doctor, who did not do anything but to press my abdomen and see if it hurts. The family doctor referred me to a specialist who will carry out my operation who, fortunately, was just around the hospital doing some operation.
It was around 6 pm that the specialist doctor was able to see us. He said I need to be CT scanned so we can be sure of what my illness really is. But since the department who will do the CT scan was closed that day, I was scheduled to have it the next day and I did not have a choice but to spend the night in the hospital. So to cut the story short, the next day, I had gone through a CT scan and they found nothing wrong with my appendix. And my illness turned out to be a UTI, which most women who had just given birth suffer from. No need for an operation and the doctor just gave me antibiotic that's safe for the baby because I am breastfeeding. After my CT scan, we just waited for the result then we headed home. I was telling Jay-ar on our way home that I had a big mouth. It was me who actually suggested to the family doctor that I could be suffering from appendicitis and I think the doctor just got worried that if I really had appendicitis and he let me go and my appendix burst, the blame will be on him that is why he really insisted for an operation. Good thing I have a medical card so we did not pay for anything and good thing I only needed to stay in the hospital for one night and one day.
And until now, Jay-ar is still teasing me about that incident - on how drama queen I could be! :)
Sunday, June 14, 2009
On Motherhood
2 hours lang ako nag labor... No sweat diba? hehehe! Sa totoo lang 'masarap' manganak! Ang mahirap ay mag labor... Pero compared sa ibang mga nanganak na, mas smooth at mas mabilis ang labor at panganganak ko... Nung nag bubuntis din ako, no sweat din.. Walang morning sickness, walang weird cravings... as in parang wala lang, lumalaki lang chan ko... hehehe! Pero nung nanganak na ko, sobrang nag adjust ako sa pag aalaga ng bata. Maraming times na gs2 ko na mag give up at ibalik ang anak ko chan ko... I admit na may mga times din na gusto ko na sya itapon... hehehe! Ang hirap pala mag alaga ng bata. Lalo na nung mga first few weeks ni Kylie, nde sya hiyang sa gatas nya kaya lagi sya nag loloko... iyak ng iyak at di makatulog. Gusto lagi karga at may times na kahit karga na at busog, iyak pa din ng iyak. Nde namin agad nalaman na dahil sa gatas kaya kung anu anu pa binili namin sa kanya... Bukod sa baby bouncer nya, binilan din namin sya ng duyan na pareho nyang ayaw tulugan. Dahil gs2 nya lagi karga sya, bumili din kami ng baby sling carrier. Then nung na realize namin na dahil sa gatas pala at pinalitan namin gatas nya, nag sisimula na syang bumait although ayaw nya pa din sa baby bouncer at duyan. Pero at least ngayun pwede na ko umupo kapag buhat ko sya. Dati kasi kapag nangangawit na ko kakatayo kapag buhat ko sya, uupo ako at iiyak sya with matching padyak padyak pa... O diba, bratinela in the making tlaga. Hehehe! Pero as I have said, unti unti nang nagiging okay na sya...
Most of the time pag may toyo si Kylie, tino-toyo din ako at ang kawawa ay si Jay-ar kasi sa kanya ko nabubuhos ang mga toyo ko. Hehehe! Anjan yung mga dialogue ko na "first and last baby na natin to!" sa sobrang hirap ko sa pag aalaga. May mga times na naiisip ko unfair. Kasi si Jay-ar, nagagawa nya pa din yung mga bagay na nagagawa nya dati nung wala pa kami anak... Para sakin, wala masyadong nag bago sa buhay nya. Samantalang ako, hindi ko na magawa yung mga bagay na dati kong nagagawa kasi 24/7 na ko kay Kylie. May times din na nag wish ako na sana 2 tao na lang ako para nagagawa ko yung gs2 ko gawin at the same time, ako pa din nag aalaga kay Kylie. So can relate na tuloy ako dun sa dialogue ni Vilma Santos sa movie na "Anak". Hehehe! Siguro kasi sa pag kakaron ng anak, dapat hindi ka lang physically prepared pero emotionally prepared ka din. Pero ngayun, I wouldn't trade taking care of my baby for anything else. Mas gs2 ko nga ako nag aalaga kay Kylie kasi nagagawa ko kung panu yung alaga na gs2 ko para sa kanya. Hindi ko na sya gs2 ibalik sa chan ko... In fact, I don't want to live without her. Nasa sistema ko na sya. Lalo na ngayun, masarap na sya alagaan kasi marunong na sya makipag kwentuhan. Hehehe! Lumalaki syang lalong cute! Sabi ko nga sa post ko sa baba, mahirap na masarap maging nanay. Pero yung hirap, nabubura na at nagiging sarap na kapag nginitian ka na ng baby mo :)
Marami na din ako na acquired na skills. Bukod sa mga basic skills ng pag aalaga ng bata na automatic kong nakuha nung nanganak ako, may ibang skills pa akong natutunan. Dati nung wala pa kong anak, ayaw ko bumuhat ng new born baby kasi feeling ko mababalian ko yung baby... Nung nanganak ako, parang alam ko na agad kung panu ko bubuhatin si Kylie. Galing no! Ipinanganganak ng nanay yung mga ganung skills kasama nung baby nya. Hehehe! Eto ang mga iba pang skills na natutunan ko.
1. Nasanay na ko manood ng TV ng walang sounds
2. Gumagaling na ko sa pag compose ng kung anu anung lullaby songs
3. Lumalakas na ang braso ko sa pagbuhat kasi ayaw nag papalapag ng aking kylie
4. Natuto na kong matulog ng every 30 mins. Swerte na kapag naka 2 hours at jackpot na pag naka 5 hours na tulog.
5. Natuto na din ako makipag kwentuhan kay JR ng pabulong. hehehe!
6. Natutunan ko na din na mag iba iba ng modulation ng boses
7. Syempre anjan na din yung expertise sa pagpapatahan ng iyak
8. Buti na lang nde tlaga ako malikot matulog kasi mabilis ko natutunan ang matulog ng nde gumagalaw.
9. Natutunan ko na din gamitin ang mga paa ko pag abot ng mga gamit tulad ng kumot, remote, unan, etc. etc. kapag ang dalawang kamay ko ay buhat si kylie
10.Malapit ko na ma-master ang matulog ng nakaupo o nakatayo! hehehe
Ayan lang naman ang nobela sa aking experience "so far" sa pagiging amateur mommy. Sa lahat ng mga hirap ko na naikwento ko sa pag aalaga ng baby, nde ako nag sisisi sa pagkakaron ng baby kasi na outweigh ng sarap ang hirap ng pag aalaga ng baby. Lalo na kapag ganito ka cute ang baby mo :)
Most of the time pag may toyo si Kylie, tino-toyo din ako at ang kawawa ay si Jay-ar kasi sa kanya ko nabubuhos ang mga toyo ko. Hehehe! Anjan yung mga dialogue ko na "first and last baby na natin to!" sa sobrang hirap ko sa pag aalaga. May mga times na naiisip ko unfair. Kasi si Jay-ar, nagagawa nya pa din yung mga bagay na nagagawa nya dati nung wala pa kami anak... Para sakin, wala masyadong nag bago sa buhay nya. Samantalang ako, hindi ko na magawa yung mga bagay na dati kong nagagawa kasi 24/7 na ko kay Kylie. May times din na nag wish ako na sana 2 tao na lang ako para nagagawa ko yung gs2 ko gawin at the same time, ako pa din nag aalaga kay Kylie. So can relate na tuloy ako dun sa dialogue ni Vilma Santos sa movie na "Anak". Hehehe! Siguro kasi sa pag kakaron ng anak, dapat hindi ka lang physically prepared pero emotionally prepared ka din. Pero ngayun, I wouldn't trade taking care of my baby for anything else. Mas gs2 ko nga ako nag aalaga kay Kylie kasi nagagawa ko kung panu yung alaga na gs2 ko para sa kanya. Hindi ko na sya gs2 ibalik sa chan ko... In fact, I don't want to live without her. Nasa sistema ko na sya. Lalo na ngayun, masarap na sya alagaan kasi marunong na sya makipag kwentuhan. Hehehe! Lumalaki syang lalong cute! Sabi ko nga sa post ko sa baba, mahirap na masarap maging nanay. Pero yung hirap, nabubura na at nagiging sarap na kapag nginitian ka na ng baby mo :)
Marami na din ako na acquired na skills. Bukod sa mga basic skills ng pag aalaga ng bata na automatic kong nakuha nung nanganak ako, may ibang skills pa akong natutunan. Dati nung wala pa kong anak, ayaw ko bumuhat ng new born baby kasi feeling ko mababalian ko yung baby... Nung nanganak ako, parang alam ko na agad kung panu ko bubuhatin si Kylie. Galing no! Ipinanganganak ng nanay yung mga ganung skills kasama nung baby nya. Hehehe! Eto ang mga iba pang skills na natutunan ko.
1. Nasanay na ko manood ng TV ng walang sounds
2. Gumagaling na ko sa pag compose ng kung anu anung lullaby songs
3. Lumalakas na ang braso ko sa pagbuhat kasi ayaw nag papalapag ng aking kylie
4. Natuto na kong matulog ng every 30 mins. Swerte na kapag naka 2 hours at jackpot na pag naka 5 hours na tulog.
5. Natuto na din ako makipag kwentuhan kay JR ng pabulong. hehehe!
6. Natutunan ko na din na mag iba iba ng modulation ng boses
7. Syempre anjan na din yung expertise sa pagpapatahan ng iyak
8. Buti na lang nde tlaga ako malikot matulog kasi mabilis ko natutunan ang matulog ng nde gumagalaw.
9. Natutunan ko na din gamitin ang mga paa ko pag abot ng mga gamit tulad ng kumot, remote, unan, etc. etc. kapag ang dalawang kamay ko ay buhat si kylie
10.Malapit ko na ma-master ang matulog ng nakaupo o nakatayo! hehehe
Ayan lang naman ang nobela sa aking experience "so far" sa pagiging amateur mommy. Sa lahat ng mga hirap ko na naikwento ko sa pag aalaga ng baby, nde ako nag sisisi sa pagkakaron ng baby kasi na outweigh ng sarap ang hirap ng pag aalaga ng baby. Lalo na kapag ganito ka cute ang baby mo :)
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Alms...
I don't need battle station but I do need help taking care of my cutie baby Kylie. She's so fussy but I still love her to pieces. Buti na lang darating na ang yaya next week. Haaaysss, mahirap na masarap pala maging nanay. And that's just cliche for you if you're not a mother. :)
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